Thursday, August 18, 2005
goodness.
look at the time. its
2.29am.
ad i'm still up here blogging.
apparently the caffine's still working,
and i cant seem to feel a slight inch of
drowsiness. man. whats wrong with me.
usually when i can sleep, i'll just fly
to the bed and by the next instant, i'd
already be in lala land dreaming.
lol.
hahaha.
exaggeration though.
mann.
tomorrow's my
freaking ABRSM peeyahnoh exam.
or isit pyehnoh?
lol.
who cares. its just spelt as p-i-a-n-o.
anyway. urhh. my pieces are flops when
i'm susposed to use that to help me pass.
cause, i cant sight read, or sing the aural
thingy very well. though i'm in choir, but
that doesnt grant me a special gift to be
able to sing the note immediately when i
see it or something.
thank god that it is Sight-Singing in free-
time. if i had to follow the rhythmn,
lets just not say get a mark. I'd prolly
just stutter at the first two notes and die
there in front of the examiner so helplessly.
anyway. i'm placing
everything in god's hand.
if i fail, i take it that i've to drop piano.
if i pass, i'd continue and glorify him.
in a way la. lol.
i dont know la. let god decide, what is good
for me.
oh ya.
lays showed me this really cute christian site.
the amazing thing that the site's originally
in korean. then they translated it to english.
the flash depicts the values and everything in
the bible so nicely and heart-warmingly.
the one on "duty" is especially nice. i actually
cried dropped some tears.
lol.
okay that sounds so gay lah. >_>
hmm.
arhh. god bless me for tomorrow's exam.
pass can already. lol. i dont exactly desire
for a very high distinction or whatevernot.
borderline pass would be good. hahaha.
low aspirations. whatever the case, i'd just
play to my heart's content, [i hope that i
can actually do that in front of that ang
moh] and see what kind of score i would get.
god is really one who answers prayer.
prayed for me step out with faith on water.
and in the end what i get.
thislol. oh wells, dont complain. i'd just strive
and work hard.
2 corinthians 12:9-10a really nice veryse. think its from last
week's service. yk encouraged us [me and pete]
to claim the promise from that verse. and
there's another verse. in philippians one.
didnt exactly understand that though
right.
anyway, i'd rejoice in delight as i endure
the insults, difficulties and hardship.
i will. that's only christ is able to lay
his power in. the power perfect in the weak.
lol. yea i am weak, aint i? all humans are.
but i'm probably especially weak.
oh wells. god, morph me!
cherishthelordandworktilltheendoftime
forsuchgreatgodonlycomesonceinalifetimei'm off to lala land. enough of blogging.
i must
MORPH. *screams.
Tada~
Transformers A new me!
*sprawls on keyboard.
express yourself {2:26 AM}
Sunday, August 14, 2005
crashedd.geez.
after looking at lays posts.
just realised something.
i'm like so spiritually behind.
even behind pete.
blahh.
i'll just have to run faster, since
they're infront of me eh?
hmmm.
susposed to do homework and sleep.
so manythings crashing together,
cant really decide to do which first.
and the worst thing for me now is that
i'm having my ABRSM piano exam this
coming thursday.
and my pieces and scales are still like
broken, wrong and sucky bad.
then everytime when i want to practise,
the piano keys get stuck and i simply
cannot get the mood again to practise.
where's that burning desire to touch
the piano keys again, in the past
when i initially just started in this
art?
i think i must really repair the piano,
get the mr yang to maintain it.
its like all broken up liao. =.=
the keys just get stuck after you prod
on them repeatedly.
and the 2nd worst part is that the keys
that spoil are like what, the notes that
appear freaking often throughout the
whole song?
hahaha.
god bless that mr yang can fix my piano
asap.
spiritualll.
i must built up my spiritual health.
and i'm having some stupid problems with
my dad.
arhh.
he's so irritating at times.
anyway. its partly my fault too anyway.
i really didnt do my equal share. arh.
when can i really be the person whom i
really want to be.
i mustt.
but i'm lacking self-discipline. arhh.
nevermind. it all takes time. i'll just
constantly remind myself.
i want to be the person i wanna be!
sounds so wrongg.
*whines.
right.
exams are over.
i can finally stop mugging into the depths
of the nights. but now i have to do my
homework. i wonder what kind of grades
would i get. a math, e math and chem are
like flunked.
i can only place hope and my optimism in
the other subjects.
precocious i say.
and about english.
i really have to get my 1 from it if i
want to get my 6points at the end of sec4.
glorifyy.
change i must.
i'll get a new blog skin if i can.
haha.
i guess my own products arent as good.
metamorphorsis.thank you for your nail-pierced hands.
thank you for the shame that you have beared.
thank you lord of heaven.revival in anderson.
i must pace up in my speed.
singasongofpraisetotheonewhoisworth.
singitwithallyourheartforheisreallyworthy.
worthyisthelambojesuslordiloveyou.
express yourself {11:29 PM}
